august

between your vacation from school and my crazy august, i've spent so little time with you in the last month that some times i feel like you already don't need me anymore.  maybe, when you are older, you'll have have the cold as ice 'difidente' attitude that i once had (between college and meeting daddy). in some ways i hope that you don't have to learn to protect yourself in that way but on the other hand i don't ever want you to hurt.  surely daddy will always be better at expressing his emotions than i will be. don't feel put off by it. i want you to grow up as a strong independent woman whom, in the company of people you truly love reveals a deep profound spring of love. know that i love you more than i know how to say. i hope that you never feel alone in the world. you have so many people in the world already that love you and you are only 26 months old. and, i humbly hope that while you have a grandmother, two aunts and two cousins, sometimes you think of me when you need a shoulder to cry on. i will always be here for you.

i love you, pumpkin.